I caved to the God of cheeseburgers today. I should have been satisfied and I was. Until I sat down to log it on Weight Watchers. If I'm going to do this, I have to be honest about it. I get 28 points a day with WW. This little meal cost me 50. 50 points. Was it worth it? Not really. That's too damn close to two days worth of food.
In the past when I got McD's I would just start over and pretend it didn't happen. Or I'd go off plan completely and live in a cheeseburger induced stupor for a while. I had it once maybe two weeks ago, but I didn't get soda or cookies. Today I went all out. And it was a stupid decision. But putting it in writing made me face up to it. I feel better already. Next time I can come and read this post first. :P
Along the same track, my neighbor Joe and I were talking the other day about health and chemicals and such. I was telling him that I only use vinegar and baking soda as a cleaner. I also make my own dish soap out of castille soap. We had spoken earlier about me wanting McDonalds all the time. And he said to me, "So you treat your house like a temple and your body like crap."
I didn't think much of it at the time. I laughed it off. But he IS right. Why do I do that? I guess because I feel like I want what I want when I want it. That doesn't necessarily make it a good choice just because I do. Clearly I am not in a place where I'm making the right moves. Not yet. It's a sort of cognitive dissonance. I want a healthy home but not a healthy me. Well, screw that. I deserve better. <3
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